Little Things

You know what, after doing this for so long - I finally realized that I’m so much better at writing down my thoughts on paper rather than to have to type them. The only reason I do this is to have a digital copy that I can access anywhere at any time. The joy we have with technology, just at our fingertips. As I was saying, I find it much better to keep track of my thoughts on paper because I have been staring at the screen for the past 15 minutes trying to think of what I should write but to come up with nothing. There were a few titles in my head but I can’t seem to find related content to pin them. That’s why I decided on this title. I haven’t lived for very long but I do know that we will meet all kinds of people in this short lifetime of ours. For me, I personally believe that they are here to teach me lessons - those that are better having to learn the hard way, because humans just never learn when it is done the easy way. Here’s what I would tell myself had I the chance t...

It started with a song as I was paying attention to the song lyrics and relating to it, that made me feel kinda lost. Made me question myself; What is my purpose in this world? What can I contribute to the world when I have this once in a lifetime chance to live in this world? You know there's a saying "Are you living or or just existing?" - that phrase always hits home. Ever since the day I saw this phrase, it feels like my brain has decided to keep it safely enclosed in a box at the corner of my mind - and decides to open the box occasionally now and then to scare me a little or maybe to remind myself to LIVE instead of 'just existing'. Ideally, we would all prefer to be living rather than to just existing right? Some of us may dream a little bigger when it comes to making our mark in this world, perhaps it involves leaving a legacy behind for the future generation to see. While there are some of us who prefer living a life that we enjoy, treasuring every m...

As you can tell from the title, hello to the third post of the year since the start of my new year resolutions to post something once a month. For those who may not know, the phrase 'three time's a charm' simply means when something is attempted for the third time, luck is sure to result. Well, let's hope this too will work its magic - you'll never know if you never try.  Speaking of which I'm sure you noticed, there's a big change in the layout (after so long) as well as the link. Just felt the need for a change to happen because the girl from Neverland (what I call myself) needs to grow up now. One thing I kept is the background of the ocean - of which I'll never get sick looking at it and I love how it looks in this new layout. One thing for sure, I'm not done making changes to this place yet. Let's wait and see, shall we? I've got nothing special planned for this post to be honest and I'm just typing whatever that comes through...

This phrase is definitely one of my favourites, one I hold dear, the one that is always a self reminder. I know, realistically both expectations and disappointments are inevitable but I like to think that it is our decision when it comes how we choose to handle it. For most of my life, I’ve always been living up to other peoples’ expectations - how to be a better student, a better child, a better sibling even a better lover - a constant battle of who and who is always better than me. I guess you don’t realize such things when you’re too busy striving and working hard to please everyone around you. Maybe your thoughts are like mine - if they are happy, then I am too. Funny how I never once ask myself - why don’t you do things for yourself? To be a better version of yourself, for your own sake? (Oh well, we were all foolish once.) With time, it was too late to realize how deep of a grave I had dug for myself and that how little sunshine left that I could see. I thought someone w...

Can’t believe it’s been two years since I last blogged. Figuratively speaking, it’s about 730 days of me missing in action from this space. It wasn’t entirely because of the fact that I’ve started living and acting like an adult, but it’s more of the fact that I feel burdened with the idea of writing things for the stats, the likes and for attention. Ever since my last post, everything that I have written after just never felt good enough to be seen. It didn’t feel as genuine and the words didn’t come as naturally as before. I ended up deleting all the drafts I had written because they weren’t good enough and it was frustrating to keep seeing them.  Eventually, I stopped writing entirely and just focused on writing in my journal instead - at least I didn’t feel any obligation to post them anywhere. After being on a hiatus for two years, I feel like I have a responsibility to keep this blog alive rather than to having to create a new one. Trust me for I’ve considered using othe...

To those who know me at a personal level,  You should know that I like to be the photographer,  rather than to be photographed.  (If you don't know me personally, you should know that fact too.)  Why? That's because I enjoy capturing candid moments 'cause I find them priceless.  Something that you can never get it back cos it was in 'the spur of the moment' One second it was there and another it's gone with the shutter.  What's left behind is solely a photograph.  A something  when words alone don't do enough justice for the emotion felt within.  A something when you can't recall what exactly happened -  if it breaks your heart and tears you apart,  or if it makes your heart skipped a beat when we spend time not being apart.  Something to be grateful of for  it reminds you to always water your grass instead of seeing the greener side of the other grass. To keep tellin...

Six months it has been. Just really grateful for everything that's happening.  I can't list down all of the things, as the list could never end. Simply said;  I fell, I got hurt but I'm slowly picking myself up.  One real lesson that I have learnt, (Perhaps it's one that I should have learn long time ago.) It is  To learn to not let things affect you. To choose to not let the bad experiences affect you. No matter how bad they can be.  At the end of the day,  Don't forget to always look up to the sky cos you just won't know what you'll see up above. The possibilities of seeing a rainy weather and a double rainbow are the same. So might as well give it a try, yea? :)  Just try and you'll know what I mean.  *** Shall end this short post now as it's still a working day tomorrow. Today's one of the most beautiful cotton candy skies I've ever seen.  Here's to better days to ...

I swear everything was going great today. Like this good day wouldn't stand a chance to be ruined by anything.  So I decided to start again. On an empty canvas. I can't remember the last time this happened and I totally lost count on the attempts I've made thus far. I ignored the sound of the clock ticking Focusing on the blank sheet before me. Words poured out and slowly I typed furiously.      I was delighted upon seeing what might turn up this time Anticipating the final work as  as my fingers slide across smoothly. The possibilities I had were endless. At the same time, I didn't want to give myself false hope. It happened before and I knew the terrible feeling of disappointment very well. So I kept going, choosing each words with care. Planting them with much caution, one by one. A tingling sensation at the corner of my heart reminded me of the fear I once had. Somewhere within me, ...

Given a choice,  a chance   to turn back time, to relive all your best memories again. Would you take on this once in a lifetime chance? or Would you skip it because there's no point of going through it all over again? The thought of knowing that you can't possibly change anything (even if you wanted to). Personally I would choose the first option in reliving all my best memories again. I do it not because of regret, but for the sake of remembering the details that would make me feel happy/sad/grateful/disgusted/heartbroken/depressed and other emotions that I have previously experienced. "The youth is wasted on the young and the wisdom is wasted on the old." This quote made so much sense in a way that Youth being the most beautiful thing, yet it is wasted on the young who have no clue of how to treasure it. No clue of how important it is in the later stage of life. On the other hand, wisdom is only attained when you're...

I've never felt so down in my entire life.  Feeling hopeless, like I'm a useless human being who basically consumes the very much needed oxygen that other people might not even get the chance to breathe. Everyday I wake up, asking myself what am I supposed to do. Today, this thought just struck me harder than usual. Instead of asking myself what to do, I asked myself what am I supposed to do with my life. I feel like I have not accomplished anything that is worth talking about. Like there isn't anything worthy of me. Honestly, I've never once felt that I'm smart or anything that is worthy to praise of me. never even once. Rather, I feel like I'm always trying, struggling to do better but only manages to barely keep my head out of the water, still gasping for air. At the same time, I look at all the other people who are swimming just fine in front of me. *sigh* Why am I here? What is my purpose here? I can't seem...

Having to have read what you wrote makes me feel pathetic of how I used to be. It's like seeing a reflection and to replay everything that has happened only from another's perspective. It made me realize how much of an annoyance I have been to each and every one of you. I have nothing to say except to say that I'm sorry for every mess that I've caused. Ironically,  I miss my old self but  too bad things would have to  C H A N G E I promise that I'll get better. Soon. Tonight's playlist on repeat :  Fly to the Sky :)

Time : 3.32am of 9th September 2015 Hey people, I hope you guys still remember me here. It has been very quiet, I know. So firstly I am really sorry for making you guys wait for so long (as my friend said it) on the story that I have promised long long time ago.  Due to my busy schedule I would have to postpone the complete story maybe until next month itself. The bottom is just a sneak peak as to what's going on. I have a feeling that people would have the reaction like 'A love story again?'. Any comments are much appreciated provided you said it nicely :)  My final examination's coming up next week and its really time for bed. & I'll see you soooooon! Enjoy!  x Sara ------------------------------------ Her *** She came home and slammed the door shut. She felt so exhausted after having a drink with an old friend of hers. Putting down all of her belongings on the floor, she sat down quietly as she stares at the space in which she deco...

Certain days as I cycled home at night, often I hear my thoughts speaking out to me. I look up to the sky and adore their beauty only, to realize how we took so many things for granted. From the people we know, things we have and what we want. We occupy ourselves each day in our lives with our careers, studies and everything else that we are passionate about, Yet rarely we take the time to appreciate what has been given to us. To think of it, what makes us who we are today? As I am now struggling between assignments and projects, that you realize time is something that is so fragile yet being treated .  “We all yearn for what we have lost. But sometimes, we forget what we have.” Mitch Albom, The Time Keeper Also, it is because of them that I am fighting hard in this battlefield. Hoping to make them proud someday. On another note, I am very very thankful for the people I have in my life.  I know I couldn't thank them enough for withstanding...

It has been quite some time that I update my blog these days and now here I am again. & I can finally annouced that this is the hundredth post! Making this real quick as I have yet to prepare for two tests this coming Monday.  *prays that all goes well*  Anyway since I am in the mood today, shall give you guys a peek on the upcoming story  I'm working on. Enjoy and comments are very much welcome below! *** That rainy night. She was in turmoil, trying to convince herself that she made the right decision. A little voice in her heart speaks out and kept telling her to not give up. She thought about everything that happened before this and suddenly her tears welled up.  She didn't like the idea of her crying.  She thinks that crying symbolizes weakness, like all the other girls do when they see cockroaches. Again, the voice whispers "Hey, it's okay to cry."  She curls up and buries her ...

Hey. *awkward silence*  Hi.  It's been a while since we last talked face to face. Not even thru Whatsapp. I noticed that you've been avoiding me (up until yesterday). And honestly I can't recall what I did wrong to offend you in any way Most probably I did something that upsetted you again but I really can't remember. I'm sorry. Really sorry. If you know me personally, you would know that I mean it when I say sorry. If you are reading this, I know you would find this very insincere of me to not tell you face to face But I just didn't want to affect your studies and all that since we are having exams at the moment.  So the only way I can rant it out is just here through words and more words.  Alright,  I know sometimes I say things casually (sometimes without thinking)  and you on the other hand might take things very seriously Might lead to circumstances like this happening. Sometimes,...

Farewell to the past which we shall not bring up anymore,  To thank for it moulds us to what we are today, at this very moment. Let us cheer to the future that awaits us all. We will overcome each obstacle and get stronger after each time we fall.  More importantly,  I hope this bond between all of us to not be broken despite how far we may be.  How complicated things will be.  I want all of you to be like stars,  that shines brightly in the sky during lonely nights that I may have and to know all of you are still there for me.  Even when I can't see. Know that it applies the same when you need my help.  I really mean it.  This statement describes us ever so perfectly.  P.S      Am I the only one who notices the changes in all of us after that one night? I'll need to get used to this,  one step at a time Sara.  #nowplaying We Owned ...

Yesterday , they asked.  I asked myself ; Should I or should I not? In the end I didnt. I chose not to cos I wasn't ready to have more people knowing about certain things in my life. I'm not that kind of person who can just blurts out what they feel or what they want to say. Okay fine, sometimes I do say things without thinking much.  Most of the time, I think about what I am about to say like at least 10 times  before actually saying it out So yeah, Maybe I'll tell them about it someday. Only to those who mattered to me. "Those who mattered don't mind and those who mind don't matter" It's so hard to let go of those who mattered to us.  Yup that little cloud up there is me :D (I'm so cute!)  P.S Oh dear god, please let me heal before Friday.  Do note that I am constantly sneezing while writing this post. It's so rare that I get sick but when I do, holy crap I take a l...

2 weeks of classes are done and tomorrow is the start of the third week.   I felt like a huge burden has been lifted up (not completely) once last week was over.  From being at the booth to promote the event and ensuring all the venues for my station games has been booked to finalizing the trial run this recent Saturday.  And not to mention having one report to hand in this coming Tuesday without knowing what to write for the discussion as we did not get the results according to the theories.  Almost forgotten to mention of another drama assignment where it is going to be a musical kinda thing with regards to the Principles of Biotechnology subject.  Yeah, that was the summary of my week 2 in the last semester of my second year.   As for the third week, it is finally the Interaction Day which is the event that I have been planning ever since December.  May all goes well and yours truly is excited to be the photogr...

I just need a little convincing that I can do it. I can do it.  A lot of things on my mind lately and it's been keeping me up at night. Now. Future. Hope. Dreams. Wants. Needs. Dreams.  I guess this is a part of growing up that everyone has to go through despite not wanting to. Here's to the start of me being very busy planning things for the coming 2 weeks. Prays hard that all goes well. #nowplaying ; Thinking Out Loud - Ed Sheeran

#adventuretimeisawesome Hey people! *waves hi* S orry for being away for too long until it seems like forever. Now I have got loads of things to update about ; Bioscience Week , Post-Celebration Bioscience Week, someone's 19th   and maybe would have to include TFIOS day ? *maybe I will include some teasers* Well it eventually depends on how busy I am during the Raya week. Consecutive midterms and reports to be handed in doesn't allocate time for reading storybooks not to mention blogging but it feels good to be back. After reading friends' blogs and all, I just feel like dropping by just to write something at the very least. Counting down to the days where I can go back home #6days Oh yeah, feel sad about the news regarding MH17. Speculations, racists remarks and criticism towards Malaysian Airlines are just awful to even read about it. I have nothing much to say, I just feel despair and grief towards the families of those who were on the plane. This shows ...