Little Things

Love has eyes as blue as the ocean Ones that turn a shade lighter  Against the sunlight   Love has soft brown hair  Ones that I love to twirl mindlessly when we’re reading  And he didn’t mind a single bit  Love is kind,  for he always brings an umbrella  wherever we go, so that I don’t need to for always saving me the last piece of pizza  even when I know he could have another Love is patient,  for always waiting,  no matter how long I took to get ready  *laughs*    Love has a thing for piano  He has this look whenever he plays  One that makes me wonder  How did I ever... Then he looks at me  As if to stop my train of thoughts  While his fingers delicately dance across the keys At that moment  It felt like the world was just us  Like we were meant to be  At the end of every day,  Love is you The one that I trust with all my secrets  The one that wipes all my tears  The...

It was a hunch, that took two seconds. I thought I saw you, A little different from what I remember, But it felt like this was it. I doubted myself, Thinking that it might just be you, Just when I least expect it. The two seconds felt like a lifetime, The moment your eyes locked on mine. For two seconds, I was caught off guard, For thinking that this is how we would see each other again. When the time was up, I broke the connection and returned to my phone. While ‘you’ head the other direction. There and then I thought – silly me For thinking that either of us would’ve done something, Given that it’s been three long years since we last saw each other. As if anything would happen in the first place. Two seconds was all it took – For that thought to vanish, and we return to being strangers again, Walking our own separate paths. Even though it wasn’t you A sudden thought came to my mind – Why is it that I feel this way, Is this some kind of affect...

the doodle by yours truly This is a love letter to my younger self who has gone through experiences that got her heart broken, her hopes and dreams crushed again and again.  This is a letter from myself to myself that says it's OK to have made mistakes and to have missed the chances she didn't take. My permission slip to be happy now and start living. A reminder to not rush things even when things aren't working out as planned.  Most importantly, a message from myself to myself - to take all the time needed to heal.  This is a love letter written to all the broken parts in me ******* To all the broken parts in me,  How are you? Tell me, Does it still hurt? i'm sorry  For all that I put you through For all the times I took you for granted i'm sorry For being ignorant  For letting you go through the pain For not realizing that comparison is the thief of joy I know it is selfish of me to say this but I need you to be here I need you  to let go of the othe...

What started as three words, slowly grew into a sentence, then into paragraphs. The words just keep coming and this was a result of all that. The fact that the vulnerable side of me shined through was enough to caught me by surprise. I'll let you in on another secret - it wasn't easy to stray away from the temptation to make this as another love story.  Despite the fear of being judged (aren't we all?), sometimes you just got to do it and put it out there, for yourself. At this point, anything that rhymes as I write is now an added bonus because I want to focus more on the message behind this piece and what it means to me. It may seem to contradict what I said before but I needed this post to stand on its own and have no strings attached with what I have and will write.  Here goes (written on May 2nd and countless hours were put in until now) and I hope you enjoy it. This Is Why  From the start, I never knew what it is like to be doing what you love, I only knew what it i...

Written at a time when it's easier to stay up late - because that is when I can hear my deepest thoughts the loudest. This is also the time I write my best sad stories.  Soul searching at this time of the night Brings all the questions that will never come to light A head full of questions and a heart full of doubt,  Oh why is it so hard to find a way out?  - Sara J  Never thought I'd miss nights like this. 

This was written at a time when I felt like we were something yet we were nothing. Just two plain strangers that happens to be at the same place, and perhaps not the right time. From that point, our paths diverged and we lived our own lives, writing pages of our own. This piece was something that I kept in draft for so long that I totally forgotten about it. I guess I didn’t realize how much it affected me, until I read them again and decided to finally publish this. Damn, I should try writing happier stories the next time. The title is as simplest as it is, a story that never happened. May this piece reminds us of the good times and the memories we once shared with somebody that you used to know. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ A Story That Never Happened  You and Me. Was it something I didn't see?  Or was it something I refuse to believe in?  That was the question that came into my mind,...

You know what, after doing this for so long - I finally realized that I’m so much better at writing down my thoughts on paper rather than to have to type them. The only reason I do this is to have a digital copy that I can access anywhere at any time. The joy we have with technology, just at our fingertips. As I was saying, I find it much better to keep track of my thoughts on paper because I have been staring at the screen for the past 15 minutes trying to think of what I should write but to come up with nothing. There were a few titles in my head but I can’t seem to find related content to pin them. That’s why I decided on this title. I haven’t lived for very long but I do know that we will meet all kinds of people in this short lifetime of ours. For me, I personally believe that they are here to teach me lessons - those that are better having to learn the hard way, because humans just never learn when it is done the easy way. Here’s what I would tell myself had I the chance t...

It started with a song as I was paying attention to the song lyrics and relating to it, that made me feel kinda lost. Made me question myself; What is my purpose in this world? What can I contribute to the world when I have this once in a lifetime chance to live in this world? You know there's a saying "Are you living or or just existing?" - that phrase always hits home. Ever since the day I saw this phrase, it feels like my brain has decided to keep it safely enclosed in a box at the corner of my mind - and decides to open the box occasionally now and then to scare me a little or maybe to remind myself to LIVE instead of 'just existing'. Ideally, we would all prefer to be living rather than to just existing right? Some of us may dream a little bigger when it comes to making our mark in this world, perhaps it involves leaving a legacy behind for the future generation to see. While there are some of us who prefer living a life that we enjoy, treasuring every m...

As you can tell from the title, hello to the third post of the year since the start of my new year resolutions to post something once a month. For those who may not know, the phrase 'three time's a charm' simply means when something is attempted for the third time, luck is sure to result. Well, let's hope this too will work its magic - you'll never know if you never try.  Speaking of which I'm sure you noticed, there's a big change in the layout (after so long) as well as the link. Just felt the need for a change to happen because the girl from Neverland (what I call myself) needs to grow up now. One thing I kept is the background of the ocean - of which I'll never get sick looking at it and I love how it looks in this new layout. One thing for sure, I'm not done making changes to this place yet. Let's wait and see, shall we? I've got nothing special planned for this post to be honest and I'm just typing whatever that comes through...

To those who know me at a personal level,  You should know that I like to be the photographer,  rather than to be photographed.  (If you don't know me personally, you should know that fact too.)  Why? That's because I enjoy capturing candid moments 'cause I find them priceless.  Something that you can never get it back cos it was in 'the spur of the moment' One second it was there and another it's gone with the shutter.  What's left behind is solely a photograph.  A something  when words alone don't do enough justice for the emotion felt within.  A something when you can't recall what exactly happened -  if it breaks your heart and tears you apart,  or if it makes your heart skipped a beat when we spend time not being apart.  Something to be grateful of for  it reminds you to always water your grass instead of seeing the greener side of the other grass. To keep tellin...

I can't remember how long I've been working on this or  how many drafts I have discarded for I kept feeling it's not good enough. It's been a while since I've sat in front of my laptop for hours, Given that it is only weekends that I can do this. Here's another one after a long long time. A Different Goodbye I believe that each goodbye has a sentiment of their own.  It doesn't necessarily have to be another sad ending. Yes, things will change. But how bad can it be, right?  Okay I take that back. I know it's hard not to miss them when they're gone, As you sometimes recall the memories when you're alone.  Names that once so familiar to you,  Sounds foreign after a change of view. Just like waves splash against the shores,  Pulling every pellet of sand with all their might.  Same goes to our memory,  In time, we forget those memories kept at a corner of our minds.  Goodbyes are never an easy thing,  ...

Christmas is just 2 days away now and we aren't that far from the new year too! 2016 is really coming to an end now. Anyway, May I present to you *drum rolls* My second attempt on poetry writing! Written on 20th December 2016 Do let me know your thoughts!   All about Christmas As the twelfth month comes near, Everywhere is filled with Christmas cheer, While others have feast around the hot fire, Traffic jam gets worse at this time of the year. No matter where we go, Be it there is or no snow, When the lights glisten and glow, The happiness on these faces will definitely show. Last but not least, the best thing is this To see underneath the tree full of gifts, Just one more night to bear, To finally reveal what's within. A car, teddy or even a new pet to play, What matters are those who stay, Family and friends or even a fiancee, Together each year for feast this very day. No matter what hardships you've faced,...

Only 19 days away! The joy of listening to Christmas songs everywhere I go (especially at the place I work) is the best. Still can't believe that the year 2016 is coming to an end, and it makes me wonder if I've achieved (any) resolutions. Will need to go through all these posts to figure that out. Here's a recap of my version of  2016 The year of which ; I am finally done with my tertiary studies and just beginning to experience adulthood. I have really learned valuable life lessons the hard way I definitely lost some things but I've earned something else in return. I have learned to live my life with no regrets and still go for mini adventures just like how I used to. I learned to be more thankful than ever for what I have in this life. There's so much more that I would write here but I'll keep some things to myself ;)  More importantly, I've truly learned to not give up in pursuing what is it that you want to do,  no matter wha...

Bet you didn't expect me to have written another post so fast isn't it?  Just wanted to share a short poem (my first attempt) that I wrote based on the feelings when I lost something that was really really precious to me. Hence, the sad title. Up until now, I still can't get over it and I ended up pouring all my feelings into writing this. Not sure if you would call this as being inspired.                                                                                                Written on 2nd November 2016.  I hope it's a decent work that you fellow readers will enjoy reading though it can be rather sad.  I present to you ;  The day I lost you I didn't fall for you at first sight. Rather, you weren't ...

Now that September's gone, it really feels like 2016 is coming to an end and I feel that I have not accomplished a single thing that is worth calling significant. Either way, I welcome my favourite month with open arms. *** Hi lovely people who still pay attention to my little humble blog, sorry for the lack of updates here. Well honestly speaking, it is not like I'm inactive here because I have actually drafted a few posts. Just that I don't feel like posting them for I find my work not being good enough to be read by anyone in this case. Simply said, I wasn't as good as before and that fact alone frustrates me. Someone once told me that in order to be a good writer, you have to constantly expose yourself to different environment and experience every emotion possible so that you can describe those feelings perfectly that is to be portrayed by the characters in your story.  More importantly, to be understood by the readers themselves because it is ...

Ever felt like you left a piece of your heart in someone that you once loved? Like a puzzle piece of you. Now that the person is never coming back,  It will remain a piece that you'll never retrieve it even when you tried your hardest. A void remained that seemed irreplacable. You felt heartbroken each time you recalled those memories. An important piece disappeared, made you feel sad and miserable more than ever. You start to lose hope in all things, refusing every help that you can get. You fell deeper in the hole of depression until you're and just tired of letting other things affecting you anymore ...

Written on May 17th, 11.22pm until May 18th of approximately 4am. Note ;  To some of you who may find this story extremely familiar in relation with the people you know, I truly apologized if I hurt anyone's feelings at the time of when I wrote this story.  Will try and learn to write better in terms of concealing my feelings the next time round. Enjoy and please leave some comments if you want to :) Bittersweet journey. Two individuals. Friendship or was it more than that? She is the kind of girl that probably every guy wants to be with. Her beautiful smile can easily brighten your day, and it gets better when you look into her sparkly blue eyes. Even with her hair at shoulder length, it was perfect to bring out her feminine side equally well. Despite her looks, she is definitely not one to be messed with. To describe her, it would be of ; Someone who has her stands and treats everyone equally. Someone who can be the cutest thing you've ever seen once sh...