A Purpose?

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I've never felt so down in my entire life. 

Feeling hopeless, like I'm a useless human being who basically consumes the very much needed oxygen that other people might not even get the chance to breathe.

Everyday I wake up, asking myself what am I supposed to do.

Today, this thought just struck me harder than usual.
Instead of asking myself what to do, I asked myself what am I supposed to do with my life.

I feel like I have not accomplished anything that is worth talking about.
Like there isn't anything worthy of me.

Honestly, I've never once felt that I'm smart or anything that is worthy to praise of me.
never even once.
Rather, I feel like I'm always trying, struggling to do better but only manages to barely keep my head out of the water, still gasping for air.
At the same time, I look at all the other people who are swimming just fine in front of me.

*sigh*

Why am I here?

What is my purpose here?

I can't seem to find one.


I hope you find a purpose in your life.


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