the gift of you

written on October 30, 2021

time really flies

we’re already reaching the end of chapter 10

of 2021


this marks 

another year around the sun 

for yours truly

and yet another list of lessons learnt 

for the archive 


like a collection of my past selves 

evidence of how i’m never the same person 

just one year ago 


safe to say within the past two years

i’m sure the list of lessons went longer 

than what we’d expect 

the learning curve was steep 

and we step up to it 


some lessons come with a price to pay 

while some lessons gave us a glimpse of a possible future 

with a switch of perspective 


while we may not have achieve any extravagant achievements 

like making it on the Forbes list

we made it through alive 


it may seem insignificant but it is still progress

if there’s anything to take away

know that ‘you are only given what you can handle’ 

and that ‘you deserve a place in this world’


our parents went through so much hardships to bring us into this world, we shouldn’t waste this opportunity of a lifetime and live a life worth living, one they would be proud of. 

Hometown Cha Cha Cha (paraphrased)

 

for this year, 

here’s three things i’d want to remember


it is possible to live and make use of what you already have 

i think once you see the amount saved from indulging in frivolous buys 

you’ll see a new purpose or perhaps a better option to spend or invest in

instead of using it to rewarding yourself for your hard work each month

it’s possible to keep them and reward yourself in the long run 

living in a time where instant gratification is everywhere

i think delaying it helps to give a fresh perspective and reveals true priorities 

and drawing the line between wants and needs


the harsh truth that time stops for no one 

there’s a saying that goes to imagine time as currency 

and with each day you wake up, 

you have 86400 seconds banked in your account 

the choice is yours to use wisely or waste it down the drain 

while many forget that tomorrow is never a promise

i’ve learnt to live each day 

trying my best 

and sleeping with a heart of no regrets

if there’s tomorrow

i’ll tell myself to try again and do better 

and if there’s anything you did wrong 

don’t waste the time you have dwelling over things you could no longer control

(with time as currency analogy – you would never throw $86399 dollars down the drain just because you made a mistake with $1) 

take as much time as you need and move on 

turn the page, and maybe we’ll find a brand new ending 


that overthinking will create problems that did not exist in the first place

this one is an arrow to the heart of every overthinker 

yes, i know how it is when thoughts spiral out of hand 

the feeling of helplessness as if you’re paralysed

but i believe there is a way and it’s not a one-time cure 

for me, it started with self awareness

and phrases that made me see this in a different light 

something along the lines of 

‘overthinking creates problems that did not exist in the first place. it’s all in your head and not your reality. there’s a possibility that it might happen but you don’t have to assume that it will’ 

sometimes, you need to see things or issues as they are, and not what they might be or what you think they should be.



and that wraps up what i’d like the twenty-ish year old me to remember when she looks back at this entry in the future. 
while every day is a gift, never forget 

that she, herself (her existence) too was a gift 

never a burden 


if no one told you this, know that i’m proud of the person you’ve become at this point in time – no matter how insignificant you think you are or what you think others may think of you. the only person you should answer to, is ultimately yourself – because you owe it to yourself to live a good life or otherwise. you are your own responsibility. 


p.s : happy birthday, you.

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