a thousand year old
i’ve lived for all eternity and i’ve gone through everything
a meaningless life i’ve grown accustomed to
as days turn to years
and they began to pass me by so slowly
soon, i grew tired of living
for someone who’s immortal
who does not fear death
my life turned around
the day i met you
when we first met,
i thought it was destiny
a sign that my life was about to change
it didn’t happen all at once
but with time, i saw change in me
the walls i’ve built these time
the ice cold heart of mine
slowly melt away
each time you smile
the sound of your voice calling my name
for once, it felt alright
even if i had to let these walls crumble
living in a monochrome world
i never knew what colours meant
just like how you brought joy and meaning into my worthless life
you showed me colours i never knew existed
actually, you were my joy
the only reason i wake up
braving to face each day
before i met you
life was dull that i couldn’t remember much
it wasn’t until the 999th year
that i discovered the fear of death
because i couldn’t bear the thought of you
leaving this world
and leaving me behind
it wasn’t until the 999th year
that i started to believe in this thing called ‘wish’
what mortals do and rely on
in this life as they live
for the first time
i wished and i prayed
for a normal life with you
to do things that people normally do
to share meals and watch a movie
i know it’s a selfish act
but i continue to plead
in exchange for my immortality
for the first time
i wanted to be human
just so i could experience how life is like
to grow old with you
even if my days are numbered
even if i eventually fear and resent death
i wouldn’t mind it
as long as it’s with you
i begged and pleaded
to the forces up there
to grant this sole wish of mine
but on the year short of a thousand
i pleaded for something else
in exchange for your life
i wished for you to live
even if it means i would take your place
next to the grim reaper
i wished we never met
so that this wouldn’t happen to you
so that you wouldn’t end up crying alone
in that house i left you in
i wished to erase the memories of us
so that you wouldn’t be chained by it
if it’s a burden to carry, let it be mine
the one who caused this pain
you should be free
even if you don’t remember me anymore
i’ll pray for your happiness
perhaps then, when we meet again
i’ll know that it was destiny
like how an invisible red string
bound us together
this mysterious thing called fate
that brought me to you
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