Little Things

It started with a song as I was paying attention to the song lyrics and relating to it, that made me feel kinda lost. Made me question myself; What is my purpose in this world? What can I contribute to the world when I have this once in a lifetime chance to live in this world? You know there's a saying "Are you living or or just existing?" - that phrase always hits home. Ever since the day I saw this phrase, it feels like my brain has decided to keep it safely enclosed in a box at the corner of my mind - and decides to open the box occasionally now and then to scare me a little or maybe to remind myself to LIVE instead of 'just existing'. Ideally, we would all prefer to be living rather than to just existing right? Some of us may dream a little bigger when it comes to making our mark in this world, perhaps it involves leaving a legacy behind for the future generation to see. While there are some of us who prefer living a life that we enjoy, treasuring every m...

As you can tell from the title, hello to the third post of the year since the start of my new year resolutions to post something once a month. For those who may not know, the phrase 'three time's a charm' simply means when something is attempted for the third time, luck is sure to result. Well, let's hope this too will work its magic - you'll never know if you never try.  Speaking of which I'm sure you noticed, there's a big change in the layout (after so long) as well as the link. Just felt the need for a change to happen because the girl from Neverland (what I call myself) needs to grow up now. One thing I kept is the background of the ocean - of which I'll never get sick looking at it and I love how it looks in this new layout. One thing for sure, I'm not done making changes to this place yet. Let's wait and see, shall we? I've got nothing special planned for this post to be honest and I'm just typing whatever that comes through...

This phrase is definitely one of my favourites, one I hold dear, the one that is always a self reminder. I know, realistically both expectations and disappointments are inevitable but I like to think that it is our decision when it comes how we choose to handle it. For most of my life, I’ve always been living up to other peoples’ expectations - how to be a better student, a better child, a better sibling even a better lover - a constant battle of who and who is always better than me. I guess you don’t realize such things when you’re too busy striving and working hard to please everyone around you. Maybe your thoughts are like mine - if they are happy, then I am too. Funny how I never once ask myself - why don’t you do things for yourself? To be a better version of yourself, for your own sake? (Oh well, we were all foolish once.) With time, it was too late to realize how deep of a grave I had dug for myself and that how little sunshine left that I could see. I thought someone w...

Can’t believe it’s been two years since I last blogged. Figuratively speaking, it’s about 730 days of me missing in action from this space. It wasn’t entirely because of the fact that I’ve started living and acting like an adult, but it’s more of the fact that I feel burdened with the idea of writing things for the stats, the likes and for attention. Ever since my last post, everything that I have written after just never felt good enough to be seen. It didn’t feel as genuine and the words didn’t come as naturally as before. I ended up deleting all the drafts I had written because they weren’t good enough and it was frustrating to keep seeing them.  Eventually, I stopped writing entirely and just focused on writing in my journal instead - at least I didn’t feel any obligation to post them anywhere. After being on a hiatus for two years, I feel like I have a responsibility to keep this blog alive rather than to having to create a new one. Trust me for I’ve considered using othe...

To those who know me at a personal level,  You should know that I like to be the photographer,  rather than to be photographed.  (If you don't know me personally, you should know that fact too.)  Why? That's because I enjoy capturing candid moments 'cause I find them priceless.  Something that you can never get it back cos it was in 'the spur of the moment' One second it was there and another it's gone with the shutter.  What's left behind is solely a photograph.  A something  when words alone don't do enough justice for the emotion felt within.  A something when you can't recall what exactly happened -  if it breaks your heart and tears you apart,  or if it makes your heart skipped a beat when we spend time not being apart.  Something to be grateful of for  it reminds you to always water your grass instead of seeing the greener side of the other grass. To keep tellin...

Six months it has been. Just really grateful for everything that's happening.  I can't list down all of the things, as the list could never end. Simply said;  I fell, I got hurt but I'm slowly picking myself up.  One real lesson that I have learnt, (Perhaps it's one that I should have learn long time ago.) It is  To learn to not let things affect you. To choose to not let the bad experiences affect you. No matter how bad they can be.  At the end of the day,  Don't forget to always look up to the sky cos you just won't know what you'll see up above. The possibilities of seeing a rainy weather and a double rainbow are the same. So might as well give it a try, yea? :)  Just try and you'll know what I mean.  *** Shall end this short post now as it's still a working day tomorrow. Today's one of the most beautiful cotton candy skies I've ever seen.  Here's to better days to ...

I can't remember how long I've been working on this or  how many drafts I have discarded for I kept feeling it's not good enough. It's been a while since I've sat in front of my laptop for hours, Given that it is only weekends that I can do this. Here's another one after a long long time. A Different Goodbye I believe that each goodbye has a sentiment of their own.  It doesn't necessarily have to be another sad ending. Yes, things will change. But how bad can it be, right?  Okay I take that back. I know it's hard not to miss them when they're gone, As you sometimes recall the memories when you're alone.  Names that once so familiar to you,  Sounds foreign after a change of view. Just like waves splash against the shores,  Pulling every pellet of sand with all their might.  Same goes to our memory,  In time, we forget those memories kept at a corner of our minds.  Goodbyes are never an easy thing,  ...