Little Things

Be right back. *ongoing construction* Note to self : Always do better

I swear everything was going great today. Like this good day wouldn't stand a chance to be ruined by anything.  So I decided to start again. On an empty canvas. I can't remember the last time this happened and I totally lost count on the attempts I've made thus far. I ignored the sound of the clock ticking Focusing on the blank sheet before me. Words poured out and slowly I typed furiously.      I was delighted upon seeing what might turn up this time Anticipating the final work as  as my fingers slide across smoothly. The possibilities I had were endless. At the same time, I didn't want to give myself false hope. It happened before and I knew the terrible feeling of disappointment very well. So I kept going, choosing each words with care. Planting them with much caution, one by one. A tingling sensation at the corner of my heart reminded me of the fear I once had. Somewhere within me, ...

Given a choice,  a chance   to turn back time, to relive all your best memories again. Would you take on this once in a lifetime chance? or Would you skip it because there's no point of going through it all over again? The thought of knowing that you can't possibly change anything (even if you wanted to). Personally I would choose the first option in reliving all my best memories again. I do it not because of regret, but for the sake of remembering the details that would make me feel happy/sad/grateful/disgusted/heartbroken/depressed and other emotions that I have previously experienced. "The youth is wasted on the young and the wisdom is wasted on the old." This quote made so much sense in a way that Youth being the most beautiful thing, yet it is wasted on the young who have no clue of how to treasure it. No clue of how important it is in the later stage of life. On the other hand, wisdom is only attained when you're...

We are slowly heading to the fourth week of 2017 and I hope that everyone's doing well. If things aren't going as well as you thought it would be,  be patient and always believe that things will get better eventually.  Better days are coming, alright? :)  As for me, I've been well despite my last appearance in December. 2016 was a crazy rocky ride given that one of my biggest milestones in life being achieved ; Graduation . For the year 2017, I simply wanted to be a better version of myself in various terms being attitude and most importantly to be doing better at what I love most ; Writing . mostly in my own journal but I do hope to write often here too.  *fingers crossed* Part of me wonders who keeps tab on this place if I didn't post any updates on my social media. To those people, thanks for still hanging around. I can proudly say that I have kept my new year resolutions up to my expectations this year  and it's bee...

Christmas is just 2 days away now and we aren't that far from the new year too! 2016 is really coming to an end now. Anyway, May I present to you *drum rolls* My second attempt on poetry writing! Written on 20th December 2016 Do let me know your thoughts!   All about Christmas As the twelfth month comes near, Everywhere is filled with Christmas cheer, While others have feast around the hot fire, Traffic jam gets worse at this time of the year. No matter where we go, Be it there is or no snow, When the lights glisten and glow, The happiness on these faces will definitely show. Last but not least, the best thing is this To see underneath the tree full of gifts, Just one more night to bear, To finally reveal what's within. A car, teddy or even a new pet to play, What matters are those who stay, Family and friends or even a fiancee, Together each year for feast this very day. No matter what hardships you've faced,...

Only 19 days away! The joy of listening to Christmas songs everywhere I go (especially at the place I work) is the best. Still can't believe that the year 2016 is coming to an end, and it makes me wonder if I've achieved (any) resolutions. Will need to go through all these posts to figure that out. Here's a recap of my version of  2016 The year of which ; I am finally done with my tertiary studies and just beginning to experience adulthood. I have really learned valuable life lessons the hard way I definitely lost some things but I've earned something else in return. I have learned to live my life with no regrets and still go for mini adventures just like how I used to. I learned to be more thankful than ever for what I have in this life. There's so much more that I would write here but I'll keep some things to myself ;)  More importantly, I've truly learned to not give up in pursuing what is it that you want to do,  no matter wha...

I've never felt so down in my entire life.  Feeling hopeless, like I'm a useless human being who basically consumes the very much needed oxygen that other people might not even get the chance to breathe. Everyday I wake up, asking myself what am I supposed to do. Today, this thought just struck me harder than usual. Instead of asking myself what to do, I asked myself what am I supposed to do with my life. I feel like I have not accomplished anything that is worth talking about. Like there isn't anything worthy of me. Honestly, I've never once felt that I'm smart or anything that is worthy to praise of me. never even once. Rather, I feel like I'm always trying, struggling to do better but only manages to barely keep my head out of the water, still gasping for air. At the same time, I look at all the other people who are swimming just fine in front of me. *sigh* Why am I here? What is my purpose here? I can't seem...