Like seasons, people C H A N G E

Ever felt like turning back time and experience everything all over again?

First childhood friend, first crush, first love, first heartbreak, best friends and other classical moments you've treasured in these years of your life.

Most people say don't look back, just move on.

There's more to life and da da da

Those are merely words.

To those who have experienced all this, I'm sure you guys know how it goes.

All those heartwarming and also heartbreaking moments you've experience will bring not just happiness but also pain and sadness to some.

In some, like my case changes people.

Through it all I am happy with my life how but still my answer would be 

YES to experience these moments all over again.

To me these moments defines who I am today

According to some people I am just the same as before

But to myself, I have changed.

Changes are sometimes good for self.

It can make one stronger and not easily defeated.

Or

It can make one to be more open to others

Accept opinions and meet new people.

Today I'd like to talk about self reflection

To compare what I was before and what I am now

Before this, I was weak.

I can't tell people my problems 

I always keep things to myself

I can't make new friends

I get jealous easily

I am afraid of losing those I love 

(It'll take me forever to finish this list so NO)

Now, I'd say that I'm stronger

I've become MORE sociable thanks to the help of my friends (you know who you are)

I can talk to a lot more people now

Regardless whether I know you or not (which is a big improvement for a shy person like me)

I look for people to talk to whenever I have problems (private shrink LOL)

I still get jealous but now at least I don't have boyfriend issues? Hahaha

And I have to admit 

I still am afraid of losing people I love. 

As much as I want to just stop them from leaving, I have to respect their choice.

Maybe it was my fault back then but at least now I'm doing an effort of keeping touch with these people.

So those who receives random text messages from me, do know that I love you.

Even if you were to leave, I am happy that you were here in my life.

So overall I have changed (still in the caterpillar stage of metamorphosis if you we're to ask me, but hey slow and steady right? :D ) for the better dont you think? 

Next on my list is my public speaking skills.

Cos someday I wish to talk in front of full audience.

I want people to see me as a confident person and also a person who has changed greatly over time.

To end this post, I'd like to say something to a someone whom I really treasure until now

Hey you.

I don't want to lose you.

So I'll get over you.

And for the record you're the first :) 

Thanks for the memories 

ykilyisd <3

Love, Sara

Till next time, 

xx

Sara