To A Friend

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Here's to the first post of 2016. 

Cheers and enjoy (:


Today I've received a letter from a friend. 
This friend of mine has been distant for quite a while but my memory did not failed me in remembering this friend as a close friend of mine since high school. 
We were so close to the extent that nothing can break us apart. 
There was nothing until distance and time tore us apart and just like that two hearts were separated. 
Time flies and none of us put in the effort to keep in contact despite making promises to do so since we were young. 
The letter came in a surprising manner where I found it slipped into my journal.
No other people have known the existence of this journal except this friend.
This friend that I have treasured my whole life.
Not only a letter was slipped but a handwritten message was in it as well. 

"I'll miss you and I'm sorry."

Tears streamed down my face and I stared at those words. 
I recalled a moment when everything was right.

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We were laughing happily, chatting away about both good and bad things that happened.

Like it was just another day in our lives.
At our favourite spot at the cafe.
Everyday.

***

You must be thinking that I'm silly. 
Why this, out of all the other times we shared?
It's nothing special, I admit but it's definitely my favourite memory of us.
That it was personal makes it my favourite memory of all. 

Never would I have expect it to be the last conversation that I would remember.
There are still so many words that I want to say to you.

Believe it or not, 
I still feel weird for not being able to talk to you about my everyday life and 
up until now I couldn't find anyone else that I am comfortable telling.

Either way, now that I see you living your life happily as it is,
 It would be great if this would not be a bother to you

Before I get to the end of this,
I'd like to say something
I'm sorry for not putting in effort and that we only "speak" during each of our birthdays.
At least I can proudly say that I still remember your birthday without Facebook to remind me.
Unlike you though.
Still, I forgive you for that :)
I know my words will never be enough and that it won't reach you.
I'm sorry I didn't say sorry for all the wrongdoings that I have done to have offended you.

Sometimes my actions aren't really on point when it comes to saying what I have to say truthfully.

so yeah with that, 
I have decided to not be dwelling about my past any longer. 
I'll move on to creating new memories that I will remember for the rest of my life.

Let's just leave things in the past and focus on the present shall we?

Thank you
for contributing colours upon my blank canvas even if its for a short period of time.


To a fresh start. 

The two of us.



Love, 
Sara

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